Nightmares...

I was warned they would come later. Later is now. I don't sleep that much any more. I will fall asleep for an hour and wake up to him screaming. I look around and he's not here but he is. People don't understand that all of the nightmares actually happened. I just chose to forget. Mistake. There is no amount of sleeping pills or booze to take me down. I've tried...it doesn't work. I'm terrified what I will remember next.