i just want to scream...

i can't even use caps to say that shit.

it's like a wave in my mind...it keeps crashing...over and over and over...

it makes me cry.

i couldn't save him and in the end i'm the one drowning.

whore, cunt you fucking piece of shit...you are worthless and weak. no one could ever love some thing as disgusting as you. you're a drama queen you fucking cunt, thats all you want is attention that's all you ever wanted you fucking bitch.

took him 10 seconds to say that. how many seconds are in a minute, how many minutes are in an hour..how many hours are there in a day? how many days are there in a week...how many weeks are there in a year...how many years are there in a decade.

now that i've lost my job

his words are weighing me down...i'm just a fucking loser.

i've learned that punching walls does not make it better.

at least i learned something.