Depression...

I've been told by doctors that I'm depressed. I'm dark but far from depressed. However Robert is classified by doctors and has been on medication for depression. It's weird living with a black cloud. I try and cheer him up. Massive fail every time. Do I have to put a fucking clown nose on? I wish I could help him. I'd do any thing to make him smile.

Ripley...what an amazing animal.

She passed away last week. She died in my arms. Cancer won. The kind she had there was no cure for. She was my best friend and protector for 15 years. I still wake up at night thinking she's at the end of the bed sleeping. No...She's not there. I didn't mean to raise her as a princess but she was so beautiful how could I not. She was disabled so she had a little mean streak in her. Perfect blend. My heart cracked when she passed away. Their an't no kind of glue that can fix that. She was the most fabulous friend I ever had.