URGENT: Regarding India

That was the tag line of the email my roommate sent my brother...without my knowledge. He told me last night that he sent it. "Print it out so I can read it." Wow...there are not enough buses that I can be shoved under. How dare you go behind by back and ask my brother for money. Take me for all I'm worth...I guess that's all I'm good for.

How many times can I scream at a brick wall?

How many times do I have to punch walls to be heard? I don't have enough walls. My brain does not shut off. I wish moving here would make it better...pipe dreams I guess. Now I'm under my families thumb. This is my worst nightmare. I knew it in my gut. I never should have left California.