I’m just so tired…

It’s gotten to the point to where it’s almost impossible for me to sleep. I’ve almost given up. I’m averaging about 3 hours a night at this point and that’s on and off.

I wish I could stop the questions that trail in and out of my mind constantly thoughout the night.

Stop the imagines that roll like a movie.

I think I’m so worried now that I can’t sleep that it makes it almost impossible to.

I have sleeping pills…but 8 hours of loss of control from a pill is something I can’t do. I feel as if somewhere in those 8 hours I might be lost.

I have the gift to wonder and worry way too much for my own good.

I just never thought it would get this bad.